So a month has past. A month of confusion and tears, mixed with occasional light-heartedness. You ask, what, was it really that hard? Well, I experienced some pretty serious relationship issues and I’m still recovering from it. You know, sometimes I just wish somebody can turn me into an androgynous ET and I’ll never have to deal with relationship, love, heart break, freedom, growth, intimacy, what-have-you. I can then say, “I’m an ET. I love you in an extra-terrestrial sense. I’m not afraid to show you all my ET parts and my ET heart will never break if you leave.”
That said, the whole drawing-a-day project was fun and really mother-fracking made every day more memorable, good and bad days alike. There were some days that I skipped either because I was too tired orÂ simply forgot. I usually quickly do it the day after or so.
Another cool thing about doing this project is that it forces me to face the fear of creativity everyday, even for a mere 10 minutes. “I’m too tired.” “I don’t know what to make.” “I suck.” “I’m hungry.” “I’m doing Facebook/Google+.” “How about that novel?” No excuse! I gotta sit my ass down and mother-fracking draw something NOW! Anything! So “anything” came out and that was the fun part.
This is the 10th day of my 30 days challenge of a drawing a day. Matt Cutts was right, I really member these 10 days a lot more vividly than if I didn’t do these drawings. It’s a bit obvious though that I remember the days better because I’m leaving some visual documentation for it. But I guess that’s the whole point–leaving something for the days that otherwise just fly by without a trace anyways. If so, would leaving 30 days of trash also make my days more memorable? I’m guessing yes. This idea sounds even more interesting than 30 days of drawings because we produce so much trash everydayÂ unconsciously that by documenting just one piece of trash everyday would be raising awareness of our habits. This, however, will be for next month!
My little mind liberators
Okay, I’ve been waiting for this question and you finally asked. Why do these drawings look like they are done by a 10- year-old? Here’s my answer. Because I AM a 10-year-old.
These drawings took no time, no thinking, no deliberation, no expectation, no philosophy, no clients paying for it, nobody’s going to buy it, I don’t care who’s going to see it, nobody’s going to judge me for it, although you might be judging me for it, but that’s alright. They are a direct reflection of my mental state, and for better or worse, it is like a 10-year-old’s.
(and I turn my head to see the pile of letters from insurance companies…)
Haven’t posted in a while, I feel like I’m in a rut. Yes in a rut. Yes I’m in a rut. In a rut. So many things had happened and I let them get to me. People break up, people get sick, people die, people leave. People leeeeaaaave.
Then I saw this video about what to do when you’re in a rut, like I am. Like I am in a rut.
So I decided to Make A Drawing Everyday for the next 30 days. Okay, this is kind of a cop out because I already make drawings everyday, but I thought to do thisÂ consciouslyÂ and make a collection out of it would be something interesting.
The most important thing is, that every drawing could be what it is, no masterpiece or anything, just brain dump. Simple, filthy and pure in its own way.